Friday - went hiking with Cz. Wow, that was really fun. we did all kidna of random shit that day. we sat and did nothing, cursed Zita's for being such a tease, then ate at pho. We then went on a fun adventure through the forest where we strayed off of the main trail and went up hills and into so called "caves. And shit. Epic thing happened too, while we were exploring, we found this hole in the trees that led to another trail deep within the woods. Looking at it made me think that it may have been the hiding place to a door to a magical world. Yes no joke, it was THAT TEMPTING. However, as we made our way towards the entrance, I looked down and saw a snake in the grass, which caused us to run away screaming. ** -_-" we're so fail**
But yes, it was some epic shit. Perhaps this is a sign that we shouldn't enter the magical woody abyss.
-_-" I'm so lame XDDD

Kay so, today, I subwayed to Pacific Mall by my self in order to meet up with my cousins Cecelia and Michelle.
Heres another one of those rundowns that I like doing.
While on the bus, saw one of the dudes that worked at the place i get my haircut. LOL he got prettier!!! but he smokes and I was like ewww ** walks around the second-hand smoke...ness. Got to Pmall at exactly 11:00 Am ** its surprising how many cute asian guys and girls you see there at 11 am on a thursday. o.O**.
Met up with cousins and went to Seoul Gardens. HOLY SHIT!! KOREAN BBQ IS AMAZING!!!! It was expensive though. 17 dollars for me, but then again, it was totally worth it. I really have to go back there again someday.

***Some Good Ass Food!!!! n_n***

Then shopped for a while. Lol soo many things happened during this time. Went to the place where I got my ear pierced and the lady told me that I should wait at least another week before taking off my earring. :( ** just one more week and then I can wear my awesome-er earring n_n**. We then looked around the store for a little longer and I ended asking the girl who worked there what the song that was playing in the store was called. Took about five minutes of guessing before we finally got the right name. Hehe. and yes, YES & NO was the name of the song.
We then went to karaoke for 2 hours. Pretty straight forward shit. The karaoke place was OKAY but i found that the songs from OASIS were soo much better. But oh well. It was still fun. and during the song choosing, I dared my cousin to choose "You Are My Sunshine". She actually sang it. Oh *** warning michelle moment** When we were loooking over what songs we had, we came across the song from the Lion King, " The Circle Of Life". We asked her why the heck did she choose that song. Her answer, " I thought it was "Colours Of The Wind". XDDD Oh Michelle....
After Karaoke, we did some extra shopping. Oh God that was awesome!!! i Got 2 rings and grey colour contacts. FINALLY!!!!!! ** Will Upload Picture of myself cam-whoring with them on tmorrow**. God, I love shopping at Pmall.
After Pmall, we made our way home. Err at least to their house. That entire trip was pretty much 2 and a half hours. o.O, but I did find something cool. The seats in Brampton busses are so cool!!!

***Epic Seats***

Although it pains me to say it, summer 2010 is in fact coming to an end. Thinking back, although it I can truly say that this was the worst summer I've ever had, I think that I shouldn't condemn these past two months to the title as worst summer. Why, I guess it would have to be for my own sanity.

Thinking back, I find myself feeling as though I still have a lot of things that I still need to do. Perhaps that's why I'm having this feeling so early. There's still two weeks of summer left, perhaps this is enough for me to tie up any loose ends that still may be lingering around, whatever they may be.

So far, I think that my most favourite events of this summer had to be

- Meeting my cousins from America, Gosh their soo awesome!!! I loves them and will be waiting for the next time i'll see them
^_^

- Shopping!!!!! I now own some new clothes, and a shit load of new jewelry!!!

- Ear pierced ^_^

- My confession. That had to be the single most influential change I've undergone because, not only did it help me figure out who I am and what I stood for in terms of my emotions and thoughts, it also directed me to learn more about life and how I should live the rest of it.

- Learned how to subway. That one trip has opened my mind the the many possibilities in the future.

- many more but can't recall.

Final thoughts, I still feel empty, even though I have experienced so much during the past 2 months. I don't really know what's going to happen next, but for some reason, I feel as though there will be a few more twists and turns before the summer's over. However, I believe in the old cantonese saying: " When the boat reaches the docks, it'll align with the docks perfectly." meaning things will inevitably fall into place. Perhaps I should simply stop working so hard to force things my way. I do realize that I've said that before but to those reading this, rest assured. I'm not crazy, I just need to remind myself of this from time to time n_n

Mood: tired, fully of thoughts and emotions, but speechless.

Hehe... my life is such a retarded roller coaster.

Lets start off with then the ride goes up shall we :DD
Woke up early and happily due to the fact that I was going to subway to Pmall for the first time. n_n
Wow I finally got my ears pierced!!! well left ear anyways. I'm gonna see how things go and if I like how looks, I'll get another one :S. Today was also the first time that my friends Cz and JW went to Pmall. Hmmm... As the day went on, we managed to disturb a shit load of people on 4 busses and 2 subway cart, Jw had another brainblast moment when he was playing sudoku on the subway, took photo booth pics, OJ broke a pair of glasses and had to pay for them, walked around, went back to Square One, McGangbanged, bubble tea-ed, tried new cactus and fig green tea ** holy shit that was surprisingly good**, camwhored some more at the apple store and yea. It was a pretty fun and chill day.
- Mood: content and satisfied.

Aaaaaaaaaand heres when the ride goes straight to the bottom. -_-"
Of course, since its my life, everything bad obviously took place **you guessed it** at home. Parents came home and then they start yelling at each other. Father almost gets a heart attack and that when he dropped the bomb. So as of now, we are highly likely to move back to Toronto, and father thinks that if he stays together with mother, he'll eventually die of a heart attack and stress so they may also be splitting up. This is why I love going out. Being at home is psychologically and mentally damaging.
And just to add a little extra shit, my cyndaquil phone string broke and cyndaquil fell off :'(. Goodbye cyndaquil, Have fun on your adventures around the world.
- Mood: Rock bottom.

KAY SO,
MY FAVOURITE JAP SINGER EVAR!!!! UTADA HIKARU DECIDED TO GO ON HIATUS FOR AN UNKNOWN AMOUNT OF TIME :'(
I KINDA CRIED A LITTLE WHEN I HEARD THE NEWS.
BUT!!!!! AS HER NUMBER 1 FAN, I HAVE TO RESPECT HER DECISION ANS SUPPORT HER NO MATTER WHAT.
SO COME BACK SOON UTADA!!! AND STEVIE LOVES YOU!!!!

Wow, my Weekend plus two days went quite well, :DD

Saturday: went to chinatown twice :DD and bought two more rings and a chain to match the other hand hehe. Finally my left hand if chained!!!!!

*** OOoh I LIKE HOW TO TWO PICTURE BLEND TOGETHER

oh and got a samsung corby pro. YAY!!!! Its a touch phone with a full keyboard!! FUCK YESS!!!!! lol now my texts won't be so slow


Sunday: managed to put all of my phone strings onto phone and started spazzing and talking to myself about how awesome I am for managing all of that. I also went to chinatown... again hehe :DD

** The Owl of Minerva, this korean restaurant is absolute awesomenesss!!!!! And you can always count on china town for random engrish lessons every now and then. ^_^**


Monday: Went to watch Inception with cz. FUCK MAN THAT WAS AN AWESOME MOVIE!!!!!
AND GOO OMNIPOTENT GUY!!!!!

Tuesday: blogged about it all
XDDDD



Wow this week was quiet but really enlightening. Here's a run down of what happened.

Tuesday : Chilled at Enzo's. Then walked around with czarina. Chill day ^_^

Wednesday : Chilled with Brandon, Ashley, Czarina, and Jew at Square 1. That was pretty lawl... and fail, but in a good way :DD Had my first Mc Gangbang. Shit man that wasn't THE best but it surely reached top 10 in the list of things that were awesome about summer 2010.
lol heres a pic ^_^


Ingredients : a Double Cheeseburger and a Junior Chicken Sandwitch. XDD

Thursday: Chilled with Jenny, and found Jessica who brought us to Czarina, Jew and Michelle at Wal-mart. Had a little sibling bonding time with Jenny. And ranted about recent happenings about other people.

Friday: Chilled with Czarina and missioned to places and did shit.
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Now is time for the analysis and the enlightening part.
**Lol yes I did have another revelation.**
Although I said that I was over "______", I for some reason still had some doubt. For some reason, I was scared that I might still have feelings for said person or that those feelings might just randomly come back. But after chilling with ________, I realized that truly was over this said person. I was able to chill with said person as a friend and it was as if I never even had any feelings towards said person to begin with. Knowing this, I have finally attained some freedom and self control that managed to slip away.
After this week, the one thing I need to believe in is the old fact that I keep telling other people.
Letting go of these feelings, not matter how genuine and true they were, may be the best thing to do because there's always something better down the road. Although I would rather find love myself, sometimes, all I can do is let love find me. And I know that there's love waiting for me down the road because that's life. If something wasn't meant to happen, its because there's something even better headed my way.
**And yes this revelation was also inspired by an image I happened to come across in my everyday life. And hear it is **


in the image above is a heart on the road.

amazing what Tire tracks can evoke within the mind of Steven.

There's nothing I can do about the past except to accept it. However, changes can be done based of the past to affect the future.

- I promise that I'll cherish those that I truly care about so that I won't be left if regret when they leave.

- I promise that I won't give up so easily anymore so that when it comes down to it, we'll stay together no matter what

- I promise, to all of those people that I've decided to let go, that I'll forget everything good and bad peacefully.

- I promise to be more upfront about my thoughts so that communication can be possible.

- I promise to not stifle myself and to not be self-damaging so that I won't cause the people close to me any worry.

- I promise to show you my true self and only my true self so that I can destroy any doubts and rumours.

- I promise to take you to Pmall :) and get you an awesome ring so that you'll always have a piece of Stevie with you.

- I promise to be there when you need me, even if we don't seem as close anymore.

- I promise to make more awesome memories with all of you guys

- I promise not to give up all people so that when things revert back to normal for a select few months we'll still be together. :D

mood - ambitious