Wednesday, September 29, 2010 @ 8:05 PM
Shota Shimizu
Kay so,
I've put this off for way too long!!.
SHOTA SHIMIZU IS AMAZING!!! OH MY SHIT!!! HE'S SO CUTE, in a younger brother kinda way... even though he's 21 o3o. Gotta love his music.
lol must find pic of him.
lol yea... he brough tmy love of jap music back to life woot!!! <3
Tuesday, September 28, 2010 @ 4:58 PM
not a virgin anymore XDDD. Kay so my phones being gay. i lost my phone internet virginity. and i know what all you pervs were thinking of.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010 @ 11:27 PM
HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!!!!!!!!
HEHEHE I'M HATING TUMBLR SO MUCH RIGHT NOW BECAUSE ITS MAKING ME TREAT MY BLOGGER AS I DO MY TUMBLR
STEVIE REFUSES !!! oAo
but yes. On this day hundreds of years ago, some chick named CHANG'E decided to eat her husband's drugs and flew to the moon. a few hundred years later, chinese people took back china from the mongolians by giving out mooncakes that had a message inside telling them to rebel on this day, and another ew hundred years later, heres this loser on his blog talking about it.
so here's a pic of the mooncake that I had just now. err well a few pics just cause i'm that muhc of a loser and clearly don't have anything better to do than take numerous photographs of a chinese pastry at 10:30 in the evening.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010 @ 12:41 AM
For the Previous Post, Please Listen to the first song for the first paragraph and then the next song for the next paragraph
I think I got it...
After thinking by myself, I think I've finally managed to figure out why I've been so down lately. And yes, with this new realization does come with a new song first song.
I think that I've been feeling down because I'm alone. It feels as though there's a wall between everyone and I and it seems that as much as I hope someone comes around to break the wall down, the only change people are causing to the wall is adding more and more layers to it. I can't help shake the feeling that I'm going to be hurt by someone I thought was close to be again. The scary thing is, I'm alone and helpless. There's nothing I can do and I really question who I can turn to when things get to that point where I'm gonna need help. In the end, I'm just scared of loneliness.
At the same time, I've been feeling that there's this emptiness in me. That I'm missing a very important part of who I am as an individual and I can't seem to figure out what I've lost.
:( :| :) :D
I think I just got an epiphany. There is no doubt that there is a hole present now. However, perhaps this isn't a hole that was created from the leaving of something. Perhaps this emptiness was created from growth. I know that I've changed and perhaps this change has caused a growth in who I am. Maybe this hole was created because soon, there will be something that will fill it. Maybe this emptiness is a sign that I'm going to change once again. Learn more about who I am. Maybe this is a sign of a change in environment. That someone new is about to pop up.
Mood - confused, but strangely in a good way. :D
Sunday, September 19, 2010 @ 8:59 PM
A Total Mess
To be honest, I hve a lot of things ro write about but or some reason, i can't find the right words for it. But one thing's for certain, I'm in an even more of an emotional wreck than i was before. Also, I'm so tired of faking confidence that I obviously don't have. Too bad I have to though because if I don't, then I'll simply be lost and helpless, which is something that I can't afford to become.Why am I never good enough?...
Thursday, September 9, 2010 @ 10:52 PM
2010 - 2011. grade eleven year... so far...
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hit man... grade 11 is no joke. Its the third day of school and I already feel tired. I should really be sleeping right now but egh. Felt bad since I'm not blogging.
But still, although it'll be quite the challenging course, I absolutely love my law class. Although the people are kinda stupid, I think that I'm willing to endure the immaturity of certain classmates for the sake of my love and intrigue of this course.
Today while watching the news during dinner, my mother heard something about homosexuals and then she said out loud "disgusting mother fucking gays". To which my dad then looked at me knowing what was coming. I decided not to beat her ass with my words and to just let her think about what she just said while being in the same room as someone who strongly opposes discrimination towards homosexuals. Although I still ended up arguing with both my mother and father about how homosexuals are still human being and stuff, it just goes to show how different and ironic the family is.
Met the newest family member, Jeric. He seems quite nice hehe. Hope we don't scare him too much. hehehe
Lets see where this year takes me...
Mood: hopeful...
Friday, September 3, 2010 @ 8:16 PM
Goodbye and on some level, Good riddance summer 2010
This post marks the last week of summer. Lets recap shall we?
During the week, we went to kim's house and chilled after the longest time n_n, I went to jenny's and spent the day eating and the night, having the real fun with two special someone's hehe. Fun times hehe. Although the contents of the conversations we had cannot be revealed, it is still quite... informing and strangely truthful hehe. Went to the niner orientation. Wow, the niner's this year are actually really polite XDDDDD. while we were handing out food, they were honest enough to only take one pack of chips and they would ask for the smallest things, like napkins. n_n
I actually like them a little... And to end off summer of 2010, We picnicked in the rain. And I've come to learn that although my fam can prob make better, the tao chicken at fortune dragon is actually quite good ^_^. <-- ooouu face has a mole hehe xDDDDD.
Although I still feel as though there are many things that I forgot to do this summer, I actually don't mind how it turned out...considering that this is hopefully the worst summer that I'll have to endure through.
Hopefully, next summer can be awesome enough to make up for the all the bad that happened in this one.
Ps: Grade 11, although I've heard about you and your fury, please be kind to Stevie. :DDDDDD
