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Saturday, February 26, 2011 @ 10:33 PM
POST WAS MADE ON 2 COMPUTERS AT THE SAME TIIIIIIMMMEEEE


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THANKS TO CZARINAA I've learned how to make my cam not absolute shit XDDDDD

with my beautiful desk light,i think this pic is pretty good :DDD

AND HERE BE THE PIC OF MY NEW JEANS OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

yes!! be jealous of my beautiful curve blog stalkers!!! I LOVE THESE JEANS!!!
OKAY ITS OFFICIAL! + regurgitation of thoughts. Ps: EEERRRRMMMMDERRDERRDERRR


So I've come to the acknowledgement, err grant it, I've always kinda knew, BUT NOW I'M CERTAIN! When I'm happy, everyone else around me is sad. And its not what you think. I didn't do anything! Or atleast I don't think I did anything. But still!!!!!!!!
Why is it that whenever my life is peaceful and happy, the entire world is going nuts, and when I'm fighting through the days, everyone else is happy?!?!?
GOSH! and the worst part is, I can't do anything to help any of them. Why? because times are different and there are just wayy too many factors that are affecting things.

The change is so apparent its funny. And whats the keystone that holds my theory true, that times have changed exponentially; the fact that this blog ISN'T the first to know about what's been going on with me lately.
Lately, I've been feeling really strange, as if a foreign, unfamiliar, and just down right mind boggling emotion has entered, or re-entered. Yes its a contradiction, but hear me out first! I know that I've felt this before, yet I don't recall when, where, why, or any vague thing that I can associate with it. Its a feeling where everything in my life is peaceful and calm, yet I'm sad. Its like I want to cry when I should laugh.

And then you asked me: what do you want to do now?
My answer was:
stop doing so much
stop worrying
stop planning
stop working
stop THINKING
START FEELING
feeling happiness
feeling sadness
feeling the plethora of emotions that I can and do feel everyday.
And why?
I learn more from feeling, not thinking.

I've been so focused on the what and the why and the how of my situation that I've forgotten what some emotions are.

So now, I'm going to stop thinking and start feeling.

I think I'm going to name this emotion : Advancing.
Because through my poem above, YES IT DOESN'T RHYME, BUT ITS STILL A POEM!!!! I managed to find one thing that my brain associates this feeling with: change.
So I think that this is the epiphany of February.

And what HAVE I BEEN FEELING LATELY:
- happy, as if everyone who's in my life right now are the ones who I can count on
- disappointed, in myself for throwing words around so thoughtlessly.
- honest, that I think that I'm going to have to draw the lines now.
- distant, from what still remained of my elementary days.
- pleasant, because even though I'm disappointed, I at least know.
- feel that you're still unwilling of telling me things and I'm just gonna stop now.
- frustrated, you still worry me.

And I realized this through feeling, not thinking. So yay! The brain isn't just for picking up the heart when its shattered, the heart can do just as much.

I feel that my message hasn't been made to all of you blog stalkers so I will now do my usual scary foreshadowing!!!!!
***WARNING*** THIS IS WHAT YOU MEANT BY "I'M SCARED TO LOOK ON YOUR BLOG BECAUSE OF THE THINGS I MIGHT SEE.

The words that I'm going to stop throwing around: love, best friend, "close".
From now on, I'm going to make it so that if I do refer to you as those words or those of similar effect, You can bet certain that I ABSOLUTELY, FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, mean it.

***OKAY, BOLD IS STUCK AND I DONT KNOW WHY**

PS: EEEEERRRRRRMMMMMMMMDURRDURRDURRDURRRRR
↑↑ that is the sound that the thing at the bottom of your door makes when you flick it.↑↑
and if you say it outloud while thinking about it, you will laugh.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011 @ 10:11 PM
BLEGH BLEGH RAWR!!!!


FUNN WEEKEND!!!!

I went to Pmall on saturday ( what a surprise -__-") and I got some new earrings woot!!. However, I don't plan on camwhoring because I'm just not in the mood. I've realized that being a tall uke does have its disadvantages. Especially since I prefer tall guys because at Pmall, if they were cute and single, they were shorter than me. :'( OH WELL! At least it narrows down my choices so that when he does come around, I'll know since he'll actually be TALLER than me XD. JK, I don't mind short guys.

Then went to a family party on Sunday and chilled with Cousins for the first time in a LLLLOOOOONNNNNNNNGGGGGGG TIME!!! O3O. We performed for people, I beat my tetris score and played some Pokemon. Also, I came out to my first family member!!! MICHELLE!!!! You're awesome and I love you for being so cool about it! BUT HEY, you should have had SOME idea about my questionable sexuality if you really knew me, which you do XDDDD

Monday: Blegh day.
Saturday, February 12, 2011 @ 11:07 PM
BEST WEEKEND OF 2011!!!!!!


KAY SO

Saturday: Spent the entire day with Kim and Mariya at Pmall!! It was a good day n_n Also got my ears pierced again FINALLY!!!!They look soo sexed!!!Anyways, the day went on, we shopped, watched cute guys and stuffs when suddenly Kim decided to point out all the couple's shirts, and couple's jewelry, and cute couples and stuffs like that. -___-" EVEN THE COUPLE PLAYING DDR IN FRONT OF US WAS DANCING TO SOME CUTE LOVE SONG. Thanks for making me feel even more bitter about Valentine's day guys :DDDD. But its all good, I still have my lovely valentines so I'm still happy n_n And to top off what seemed to be a perfect day, was the perfect frozen yogurt they have at Utopia :DD

Doesn't this LOOK DELICIOUS?!?!


Sunday: Also awesome in many ways. Went to Chinatown at around noon and after eating at the awesome Korean place, went shopping by myself. Which is where I found 3 of the awesome-est pieces of jewelry that I have.
1.

Along with my second piercing, the cross looks soo awesome!!!
2.

The other cross, its plain but its longer so it kinda makes up for itself. Besides, if I want to jazz it up, I'll just add some random design or thingy to it. :DDDD
3.
And here we see the first piercing of the right ear along with a cute little cuff ( not pierced though). It too has a little cross on it. XD don't know what's up with me and crosses but meh. They look nice.

Then I went to go visit my grandma at my old house in Dufferin street. There, I got to see my Constantly-growing-more-and-more-adorable-everyday- grandnephew. You can't look at that child and say he's not absolutely adorable!.

How can say that that this kid isn't adorable?!?! BUT HE WOULDN'T SMILE FOR THE CAMERA THOUGH xDDDDD

Then I went to Dufferin mall to do some...
SHOPPING!!!!!! **flapps hands around**
Just kinda looked around when BAM!! H&M was having a little sale. Without thinking, just kinda casually walked in just to see what they had when suddenly, this giant red arrow was pointing to a specific rack. The thingy said that the cardigans were on sale, were 29.95 now 15$. So I was like :-O. But I looked around and there wasn't anymore, or so I thought. I then checked the other side of the rack and found one navy-blue/black cardican with white stripes. It was the last one, 15$, my size. So I held onto it for dear life XD. Damn its a nice cardigan XD.


So yea, it was a pretty awesome weekend :DD
Thursday, February 3, 2011 @ 12:15 AM
CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!