HAPPY BIRTHDAY CZSA!! I LOVE YOU!!!! I'D SAY HOPE YOU HAVE AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY BUT... NO!
why? because we'll all be there to make your birthday awesome!!!!

This'll be an awesome sleepover!!!!

mood - happier

Well since i told you and you didn't totally freak out... i guess that would be a success.
Just wanna say thanks for not over reacting and staying chilled about it.
Grant it, I would really rather you at least having something to say than just being like w/e about it. Oh well.
At least we still have 2 months to get over it.

mood - content :)

kay so today I shared a cooler with my sister.

THAT STUFF IS THE SHIT!!!!



I also had this cupcake thingy... my relatives work at this bakery place so I get a lot of this stuff for free (y)

THAT STUFF IS THE SHIT!!!!

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. I get Crushes really easily.

2. When I fall for someone, I tend to fall hard.

3. I'm possibly ________ <-- only certain people will know what's supposed to be there ;)

4. I tend to slack off and procrastinate.

5. If I truly tried, I can accomplish the impossible.

6. I trust too easily.

7. I hold grudges.

8. I hate when people spread rumours about me.

9. I only into Asians. * not racist, just personal preference*

10. I'm not perfect, but I AM working hard to be the best me that I can me :)

NINE THINGS YOU’VE THOUGHT ABOUT RECENTLY:

1. You.

2. The consequences of my confessions.

3. The future and all of its possibilities.

4. The fact that I need a job

5. Thank God all the drama should be just about over.

6. I need a passport

7. Transferring schools

8. My closest friends and how important they are to me.

9. It's summer!!!

EIGHT WAYS TO WIN YOUR HEART:

1. Be open to anything.

2. Put up with my bitching. And ranting. And moaning.

3. Understand my actions and be able to read me.

4. Be romantic.

5. When there's something that wants to be said/ asked. Ask/ say it. It'll help me understand your point of view and I may learn how to better myself.

6. Being the yourself. This way, you'll know that I fell for you because you're you and not something that you're not.

7. Being able to pick me up bridal style. xDDDD ** hey it shouldn't be a hard task!!*

8. Sweet and loving.

SEVEN FAVOURITE SONGS YOU’VE HAD:

1. Utada Hikaru - Beautiful World

2. Ayaka - Minna Sora No Shita

3. Akino - Pride, Nageki no Tabi

4. Mflo loves Melody - Miss You

5. William So & Eddie Ng - Die Old

6. Jang Ri In - Y ( Why)...

7. Olivia Ong - Ru Yan

SIX THINGS YOU DO BEFORE YOU GO TO BED:

1. Read Fanfiction

2. Shut Down Computer

3. Plan next few weeks

4. General stuff ** brush teeth, cream**

5. Plan tomorrow. ** extensively**

6. Think of ... mostly you... ** AND NOT IN A PERVERTED WAY!!!!***

FIVE THINGS YOU WISH YOU COULD SAY TO FIVE DIFFERENT PEOPLE RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT:

1. Yuri - I love you for being so awesome

2. Jenny - You're one of my most loved friends

3. All my friends: I’m sorry I’m a bitch.

4. Myself - Changes will happen no matter how good or bad, and life goes on. The only thing you can do is simply live with it and learn to adapt.

5. Gloria - Still waiting on those dates ;)

FOUR THINGS YOU’RE DOING RIGHT NOW:

1. Blogging

2. Being nervous

3. Wondering when I should sleep…. and get up tomorrow.

4. Being content... for the moment.

THREE THINGS YOU’RE SCARED OF:

1. Rejection

2. The future.

3. Helplessness/hopelessness/lonelyness

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

1. Find the right person for me and fall in love.

2. Accomplish my dreams of becoming a civil rights lawyer

ONE CONFESSION:

1. I Like You...

Kay so, I've decided that whenever I'm going through a lot, instead of just spazzing about whatever I have to spazz about, I'll just change the first few songs to the way I'm feeling.

SONG #1 : Miwa - Don't Cry Anymore

Translation Don't Cry Anymore

~ chorus ~ Even if I'm at my limit, even if I'm all alone I don't want to give up; I'm not kidding I don’t cry anymore I don’t cry anymore I tell myself to be strong So I will never ever cry Going to sleep with a warm feeling I thought that would continue forever Why were the things I believed in a lie? You should be with me at these kinds of times I want to step forward with my trembling feet ~ chorus ~ Even if I’m at my limit, even if I’m all alone I don’t want to give up; I’m not kidding I don’t cry anymore I don’t cry anymore I tell myself to be strong So I will never ever cry What should I believe in? I don’t know, struggle and get lost I want to grasp my wishes and make them come true I entrust them to my small hands and hold on tight Sorry, I’m not that strong And there are times when I just seem to break But if there’s just a slight piece of hope Then I want to keep holding on to it, forever ~ chorus ~ Even if I’m at my limit, even if I’m all alone I don’t want to give up; I’m not kidding I don’t cry anymore I don’t cry anymore I tell myself to be strong So I will never ever cry Even if I get forced and act reckless I’ll keep on living; this isn’t the end i don’t cry anymore~ I remember your voice So I will never ever cry So I will surely be able to smile someday credit: http://www.lunarist.com/2010/02/miwa-dont-cry-anymore-single-lyrics/

* For certain people...
Crying for you is not worth it. Therefore, no matter how close I get to crying for you, I'll tell myself to stay strong and to simply move forewords in my life. I'm not going to let these negative experiences haunt me any longer. You were once there and I thank you for it. However, even with the arrival of summer, I can't wait for the 2 of us to become friends again, no matter how much I want what we had back, all I can truly do is move on.


Song # 2 : DBSK - Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou

Translation Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Ni Natte Shimattan Darou?

Why did I fall in love with you? No matter how much time had passed I thought you'd always be here with me But you've chose a different path... Why couldn't I tell you my feelings? My feelings grew every day and night The overflowing words...although I know... They won't reach you now From the first day we met, I felt like I knew you The two of us clicked naturally We went everywhere together It was usual for you to be with me We grew up to be adults together But you've chose a different path... Why did I fall in love with you? No matter how much time passed I thought you'd always be here with me That won't happen anymore Today holds a special meaning for you Today is the day when you stand with a happy face You make a vow to God looking beautiful Next to a person who isn't me And being blessed How should I see you off? So why did I fall in love with you? Our past I can't return there anymore (I thought it over x2) Why couldn't I grab your hand and take you away? No matter how much time passes You're supposed to be by my side That won't happen anymore... Even though you're away from me For your eternal happiness I'll just wish for it However lonely it'll make me Or how hard it'll be

**For you, my unattainable crushES... Why did I have to start liking you again? I know that in the end, I'll just have to give you to someone else. Although it hurts to give you away, I know that its for the better because it'll minimize the pain that would follow... Although, when I fall for someone, I tend to fall HARD, I'll always stay as strong as possible and I hopefully will be able to move on.

Song #3 : Sclub 7 - Say Goodbye
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared

In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things
we'll wish we'd never said

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
`Cause a true love never dies
*** this is to those who I Know that I'll say goodbye to. Perhaps its all for the best. Although we won't be able to create new memories, all i can do is simply forgive , hope to be forgiven, and cherish the memories that we do share. To you... I'll always cherish these memories and I hope that you do too.


LIVE DAY!!!!
kay so summer officially start!! woot!!!!!!!
too bad john is leaving for a while cause that means we can't start our jenny Tuesdays... officially.
well we had our unofficial first jenny Tuesday and it was so awesome. There was video game playing, secret sharing, lots of junk food... and an actual earthquake o.O
lol none of us felt it though because cz was too busy screaming. lol isn't it amazing how her scream is strong enough to muffle a level 5.0-5.6 earthquake?

still I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!
LETS HOPE THAT ALL OUR JENNY TUESDAYS CAN BE AS AWESOME AND LOVELY AS THIS ONE <3

Wow... This year was... quite complete. Now that I have time to think back, so many things happened.

GAINS AND LOSSES
- Gained a new best friend: Yuri.
- Lost he who used to be such a great and valued friend
- Gained the phrases: "QQ", Spirit Circle, Sagwa
- Gained new crushes
- Lost old crushes
- Gained more experience
- Gained new memories
- Lost trust in some
- Gained trust in others
- Gained a new music phase
- Lost said new music phase
- Contacts, fidora, and new clothes
- Gained this blog

LEARNED:
- Who is my true friend
- Who I'm better off without
- More school shit
- How to remove security tool off my computer
- Who to trust
- That I'm a drama magnet
- How to say goodbye
- How to come to terms with goodbyes
- That I have the body of a Chinese woman
- Somethings about myself
- I over react A LOT!!
- How fast my life can change
- How fast those around me can change
- Choreography, lyrics, how to play guitar
- That I know nothing...

EXPERIENCES:
- AGO
- Crossdressing
- Anime North
- Drama
- Cultureshock
- Spirit Circles
-Meet Me Half Way
- Dance Practise
- Halo
- Super Smash
- OMGPOP
- UNIVERSITY BOUND
- AND MANY MORE

So that was simply a skim of what happened this School yea. It was eventful, at times joy filled, sorrrow filled, and drama filled. However, at least it was eye opening and full.
I love you guys and I hope that I'll be able to make many new memories with you for many years to come. :)

Kay so, Exams are coming and all of my teachers have decided to make of the Cats due on the same week. FUN!!!

Monday- Tuesday: Guitar CAT.
Great!! I managed to be an idiot and forget my guitar at school. Thank god my song is easy and that I've practised it a million times already.

Wednesday- Friday: Guitar Final Playing Test and Math CAT
FUCK!!! This Playing test is worth like 10 percent of my final mark and I'm already getting a pretty low mark due to the fact that I'm a noob. To be honest, I really don't know what to expect for the Math CAT. However there will be review so Hopefully I'll do well.

Monday: Hospitality CAT: dumplings
FUCK!!! Michael and I are soo dead!! Well not really. All we're doing is showing the process since The cooking time would take too long if it were done at school. The plan: We'll show the process of kneading the flour, making the outside of the dumpling, stuffing the dumpling, and oiling up the pan and dumplings to be cooked. Hopefully it goes well.

Monday14 - Thursday 17: French CAT presentations and First Part of French Exam.
I'm just Fucked for this part

Friday 18- Wednesday 23: Exams!!!
FUCKED!!!!!!!!!