Thinking back, I realize how much a miss certain people. Or at least who they used to be and how things used to be.

I remember how we used to be so close and how I used to see you ** referring to MANY people actually.** And now, you've become something so distant from me.

I remember how we all used to just chill and how we'd talk about everything and anything. And now, everything, no matter how random and distant, will always lead back to the same place.

I remember Truth or Dare, and all the other stupid games we'd all used to play together, like hit ______ <-- **insert name here**, and one random truth and shit. And now, we can barely do anything but sit in awkward silence and silently talk within the little cliques that we've all created. It seems like none of us are as close as we used to be anymore.

I remember expecting the unexpected whenever we all chill together. Now, it's become repetitive and depressing. No matter how much I tell myself " oh maybe today would be different", they'll always turn out the same way.

I remember being able to talk to any of you and carrying a decent conversation. And now, I don't even know you anymore.

I remember barely knowing you, YURI. And now, you're the bestest friend that I can ever have.

I remember Wal-mart and the repetitive purchase of two bags of chips and two 2L bottles of pop. Although they were meant to last the day, they never did, nor did they ever need to. That had to be the BEST memories of my 2009 summer.

I remember seeing you and wondering who the hell you were. One year later, We be close bros. Let's make more fun memories.


Kay so the day after my cousins left, my dad has a heart attack and now we're all tired and stressed. at least he is currently recovering and getting better. it'll still take 6 weeks until he can go to work again.
As Selfish as this may sound. I hope that he gets better soon because if i can't get out of the house soon, Imma go insane. if there are any questions about this statement, then you can ask me about it because due to my crappy family, my blissful happy state was ruined with verbal abuse and emotional abuse that is my family.
so please get well soon dad, not only for yourself, but also for everyone else.

mood - broken and emptier than any words can explain. :S

Kay to on Monday, I met the first bunch of cousins from my father's side. They're pretty cool!
There's Jenny, the 14 year old who, in terms of food, share pretty much the exact same taste as I do; and Henry, the 20...something year old who seems to be the older brother/ male cousin that I never had.
This week was quite packed with enterainment.

Monday: Chinatown dinner

Tuesday: Chinatown shopping. YO!!! GOT THIS AWESOME DRAGON RING THINGY hehe

Wednesday: went to grandmother's house and had a shit load of...chillage. AND finished my ancient drama.

Thursday: went to Niagara Falls and became REALLY tired. :D but in a good way XD

Friday: went to scarbourough for Grandmother's birthday dinner at starwalk

Saturday: Scarbourough for actual shopping. got a bracelet and a ring. and a new hair-cut.

Sunday: square one and family barbeque

Monday: Bye Bye Cousins!!!!

Extra stuff that i can't remember when it happened:
-Toy Story 3, Demetri
-The Last Airbender * God that was terrible, but not as bad as i expected so iunno if thats good
or not** XDDD

Mood - Tired


Wow... I just realized how diversely this question can be interpreted into.
Instead of doing what I'd usually do, I think I'm just going to let s/he who is reading this to answer it on their own because to be honest, I don't really have much to rant about; in terms to my inner thoughts...

mood: content but empty