Tuesday, December 27, 2011 @ 11:48 PM
End of the year post.
Its been a while since I've posted anything and since I have some time right now, I might as well wrap this year up with this post.
To recap what I've done and learned this year
- I Finally came out; and from it, got a hell of a lot out of it. I was able to realize who my true friends were, make new close friends whom I cherish, trust, and love like no tomorrow, and come in terms with who I am as well as find a new sense of freedom with what I do with my life.
- I went to the Pride parade for the first time, where I felt a level of acceptance and inclusion on such a grand scale that amazes me even today. Went to my first few gay clubbing events and had the time of my life with tess (wifey), Kevin, Martie, Sean, Oliver, and others ♥
- Realized that I no longer needed to have someone constantly there for me and learned how to handle things on my own. The adversities that I'd gone through in 2011 really made me realize how lucky I am to have learned how to solve my own problems. It made me feel a new sense of strength as well as given me the capabilities to bring what I've learned throughout my short 17 year old life into my relationships with others so that I can become the person that I never had to them. And this in turn, made me realize that just because someone once treated me like shit, that doesn't give any right to bring that baggage upon someone else.
- Learned how to subway and bus to places. This really helped me with finding my own way and was what allowed me to diverge from the repetetive life I lived here in sauga.
- Learned to accept that sometimes, people whom I thought were the type of friends that I could trust no matter what can change and also to let them go when the time comes. I've learned that if we were meant to be friends, we'll find our way back to each other in the end somehow.
- I've also undergone a myriad of epiphanies which can be traces if you go back through my archives :P
For my regrets, in retrospect, I really don't have any major regrets this year. I really treated the vast majority of this year as a new beginning for me. I broke off from the friends that I had and the life I was living in order to spread my wings and start a new beginning and I did. I met new people, tried new things, took risks, and I've what I'm grateful and truly thankful for. It really was a good year for me, but I'm not ready to let this momentum slip. Just as how my resolution was to make 2011 the best year ever, my number one resolution for 2012 is to make this year even more extravagant and and more fun filled.
For the list of resolutions:
- Make 2012 even better than 2011
- Still retain my unicorn-ness
- Finish Winter Love Song
- Get Into University
- 90+ average baby!!!!
- Stay close to the people who've really become close friends with me. No worries, you all get a shout out at the end of this post
- Not to mother people so much!
- Get attractive XDDD half-jokes. Don't know why, but I've been feeling like I'm unattractive to the people who I'm attracted to :(
- Learn new things and grow even more.
- Keep my creativity and not to let growth impair my youth and diminish my identity
- Learn to gain more control over my thoughts and emotions
- To maybe experience a genuinely positive love story. Because let's face it, my love life really has been one sad story after another.
And there you have it, 12 resolutions for the year 2012. And now for the people who I really need to address.
Tess: Before I met you, I never thought that two people could click and become close so easily. You're one of the strongest, most down to earth, most open, and most important people in my life and I really don't know where I'd be right now if we haven't met. Words can't express how thankful I am to have met you. I really hope that we can stay friends for a very long time ♥ We really need to take some couples pics again XD To make things more challenging, our time limit is 35 minutes for two pictures XDD
Kevin: I really didn't know what to expect when I first met you. But the progression of our friendship has really surprised me. Never would I have thought that you'd be my best fagget and never would I have thought that you'd be the person that I gave my first kiss to XD Not that I regret it or anything. Even though sometimes, you can come off as nonchalant and uninterested, I still believe that you really do care about us and you really do see us just as important as you are to us (if that even makes sense). You're one of the most pleasant serendipitous encounters that I've ever had and you're one of the best friends that I can possibly ask for.
David: To think that you went from the guy that I liked to the guy who I now see has a really great and irreplaceable friend still amazes me. I gotta say that I do enjoy our talks and value you as a friend more than you think. I remember when you said that we wouldn't be all at your house if it weren't for Michelle and I just want you to know that to be honest, me chilling with you isn't dependent on Michelle. It's solely based on the fact that you're a great person and I really like being around you. I know that sometimes I come off as mean, but I hope you know that at the end of the day, you're just as important to me as the rest of the gang. I'd also like to thank you for the umpteenth time for letting all of us stay over all of those times and taking care of the things that many of us don't want to do. You're really sweet and I really can't ask for a better friend.
Michelle: I really need to thank __insert cosmic/divine entity here__ that David asked you to go with him to that tumblr meet up. You've really become someone that I can relate to as we both know what it's like to constantly worry about other people. You're someone that I can really see myself going to for advice and someone who can actually give me sound advice XD And I'm really thankful to have met you. I love everything about you, be it your serious and caring side used to handle drama filled situations to your sexy and beautiful insidious face :P
Joey: You're the closest thing I have to a friend who can actually give me advice, and that's something that I can't thank you enough for. You're also one of the sweetest guys that I know and I really admire how you try so hard just to making things work with everyone. You're someone who I think I can look up to as a role model and that's really something that I've never had. You should take some time for yourself once in a while hun. I feel as though whenever we talk, you're always worrying about this person or that person. Just take a breather, you're still young and you have all the time in the world! Trust that things will work out in the end and just go with the flow n_n
Jason: It's funny how fast things can develop and how they can change within such a short period of time. I just want to thank you for the happy memories and for showing me that someone out there is able to make even me feel special. I really don't know where we're going and I'm still really scared. I know that you're still trying and that you really want an answer, but I'm still not ready to give you that answer yet. It has only been a month since we broke up and I really need more time to figure things out. I'm sorry for being so selfish and I know that this isn't fair to you. I'm also sorry for all the pain that I've put you through and still probably am putting you through. I still can't make any guarantees and that's why I'm telling you this; at the risk of hurting you even more, that, not matter where things go, I want you to have a happy ending. So KEEP SMILING!!!
Martie: I really miss out chilling days during the summer :( But I know that you're a busy person so blegh. I just want to thank you for being so awesome and I hope to see you soon n_n Short, but I really don't have that much to say to you other than the fact that you're an awesome guy and only hope for the best for you. Just keep doing what you're doing then -I guess- :S ♥
Honourable mentions: Sean, Czarzard, John, Christine♥. I love you guys, its just that i really have nothing much to say :P
And as for all of you collectively, Thank you for the awesome memories and I can't wait to make more with all of you!!!! In the immortal words of Kim Borres: "New year, new shit to deal with; But we'll face that toilet together no?"
